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Yoz.. Missed me?? Haha.. FInally off today..

2005-03-13T11:57:00.000+08:00

Today can finally off. So tired.. Haha.. My job is pretty fun because my colleagues are very nice.. But 1 thing I hate about my job is the long hours and also I have to stand for quite a long period.. Haiz.. Must learn a lot of things.. FInally got hand of the cash register and the computer but will still make mistakes... Haha.. SOmemore, yesterday they told me I will have to go to a meeting soon... AT the meeting, they will test me on things.. DIe DIe... SO scared.. Haha.. Haiz.. Just a short blog to be put up.. No time to type much coz I must go relax myself.. Haha

New update on my life.. Hahahaha

2005-03-08T17:44:00.000+08:00

HalO.. FInally, I got my job.. Haha.. I am working at Poh Kim VCD shop at Jurong Entertainment Centre from this thursday onwards.. Must come visit me wor when you all are free.. Maybe can give you staff discount.. Hopefully lahz.. No promises.. Haha.. I think I won't be updating my blog for quite some time because I would be working from 10.30 to 10.. SO, if too late, I might stay over at my aunt's house so if there's anything, do call my Hp instead of my home.. I would be working like siao these few months.. 1 to earn my poly's fees.. 2nd to keep my mind off some things which are becoming to surface.. SO, friends, don't blame me for being too heartless if I cannot go out with you all hor.. Hahahaha... See Ya all soon.. Hope that I can do well in my job.. Haiz.. I so clumsy sure will make a lot of mistakes.. Hahahaha

I am dead beat.. SO tired that I can collapse any time

2005-03-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. These few days very tired.. Busy finding jobs.. Really hope that I can find a job soon.. Now got 3 jobs in my hand.. This coming monday may have to go for another 2 interviews.. SO tired sio... TOday went back to school for the bazaar thingy.. Help with the purchasing unit.. I felt that the Bazaar is a very good place where I can apply all the lessons that I will be learning in SP over there.. Not only will the Bazaar members benefit, I think I will also benefit a lot since it's like a hands-on experience.. WHile other ppl have their internship in their last year, I will be having mine all along the 3 years.. Haha.. Smart, right?? TO think of this.. Haha.. Anyway, cross all our fingers as we hope that I can find a job soon and be successful in my job interview this monday... See Ya

HalO.. Long time no see, Blog...

2005-03-02T21:56:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Haven't been blogging these few days because I was sick and so was my comp.. Finally, both my comp and I had recovered.. Anyway.. Many ppl must have been curious about my O levels results, right?? Well..... I gt 14 for L1R4 and 17 for L1R5.. My L1R5 improved by 2 pts but my L1R4 dropped 1 pt.. Haha.. But I was very very proud of my A-maths.. WHy?? Because from sec 4 till prelims, I have been getting F9 but I got a B3 for my O..HeehEE... Tyco one lahz.. Haha.. ANyway.. these few days have been fun.. Played a whole day of mahjong yesterday at xing hua's house.. Haiz.. Kup with that stupid sai how the first time.. Nv let me win money.. Haha.. But I never played much.. I slept on XIng Hua's sofa because having a bad headache.. Feeling so apologetic because at first wanted to go with nigel, sai how and Ling to eeat sakae sushi but in the end I backed out and went home because too tired liao... Today went to SIngapore Poly with Ling and Sai How.. I already made up my decision.. I am going into SP for the business adminstration(tourism).. No matter how little the pay may turn out to be or how tough the job might be, it's still my passion and I'm sure I can make my future bright.. haha.. After SP, we went sakae for the lunch buffet.. Nigel came and joined us not long after we atarted eating.. The side orders are so delicious and the sushi too.. Was so full.. Haha.. TOmorrow, I will be going to Suntec City for the Career Fair to have a look at the scholarships offered by the company.. Sayonara..

TOmorrow will be every Sec 4 & 5 2004's Big Day..

2005-02-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

TOmorrow, I will be getting my results... Yesterday couldn't sleep.. Keep tossing and turning.. I am very worried.. I am afraid that I cannot do well.. That would affect my future.. Haiz... Guys, tomorrow if I fell onto the floor and cry after I get my results, u all should know what had happened.. Haha.. Yesterday night went out with EIleen, Min Hui and Kang RUi.. We went to catch Hide and Seek at Jurong Point.. I feel that Hide and Seek wasn't that nice.. Not really a horror movie.. More of a mystery.. Haha.. Better don't say much in case some of you thinking of catching it.. Later on, my a-maths teacher, Mr menon will be giving us a treat.. Don't really want to go home after that because will keep thinkin of my results.. But Ling going out with her Lao Gong.. Cannot possibly I go be light bulb again ma.. Never mind.. Wait after the treat then see.. Hahahahaha.. Good Luck, my friends.. No matter good or bad the results turn out to be, I will always be your friends.. Muackzzz

HaLo.. Me typing the blog while the rest are playing mahjong or poker cards..

2005-02-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

Halo.. I just came back from the BBQ.. Feeling so tired now.. But cannot sleep because have to play host to them that's why I not going to the rock-climbing tomorrow.. Sorry, Eileen.. Hmmm.. Today's BBQ was quite a success.. Today at around 3.30, went to meet wilson at yishun to buy some chicken fillets.. Then went to meet the rest at Yishun Mrt.. From EUnos MRt station, we took a cab to east coast park.. It was such a chore when we were waving for the cab.. We ate quite a lot of different type of food from chicken wings to otah to hotdogs.. At around 9 something, I finally convinced the rest to go to the funland to play bumper car with me.. Haha.. SO fun.. But then the impact and the feeling is not as before... Probably because it wasn't that fast.. Then we went to play the (baby)pirate ship.. Haha.. They shouted and shouted even though it wasn't scary at all.. I laughed like mad.. Then around 11 something, we took a cab back to my house.. The taxi driver took a longer route resulting our cab fare to hit 20 bucks.. Haiz.. Suay ar.. WHen Ling, sai how and I went back to my house, the rest were already waiting downstairs for us... OOps.. Haha.. SO, now while I am typing this blog to record the happenings, the rest are gambling.. Oops.. Haha.. I shouldn't have say it out...

2005-02-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

To all my IJC firends.. SOrry that I left so soon.. Hope to see all of ya again..

How I wish I can get my results this friday But I am so afraid...

2005-02-23T21:49:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Are we getting results on friday or monday???????? I've got a feeling it's monday lehz.. Make me even more nervous... Haiz.. Tomorrow is the bbq.. I just went to buy the things with Sai How and Ling at Giant.. Haiz.. SO many ppl haven't pay me yet.. Haha.. Anyway, never mind, I will get my money back tomorrow.. Went to buy lots of things.. WIlson came and joined us and then we took a cab to Shahrin's house to put things over there.. Quite pai seh about it.. Oops.. Hmmm.. Tomorrow will be a long day.. In the morning, I had to go back to IJ to help my mum do some things.. After that, must go civic centre to get my Singpass or else no need to perform the JAE liao.. Haha.. Then had to come home clean my house beause they coming for mahjong tomorrow night.. Wow.. What a busy day it will be for me.. So, blog, see ya tomorrow.. I am going to wash my face with tomatoes liao.. Hahahahahahahaha....

Hohoho.. Big news wor.. I 've withdraw from IJC

2005-02-22T21:43:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. I've withdraw from IJC liao.. y?? BEcause I want to organise the BBQ this thursday.. Haha.. No lahz.. Actually, because the results coming and I really want to sit back and think what I really want.. I really have thought long that I want to get into a Poly but then my mum seems to be very angry about it.. She refuses to sign the withdrawal form and didn't talked to me liao.. haiz.. My history teacher went and had a long talk with my mum yesterday and told her that I shouldn't quit.. Actually, I thinking of going back one.. By the way, when I say that I withdrawing from school, the ********* guy keeps staring at me lohz... SO happy.... That shows that he's aware of my presence which is a good thingy.. Haha.. Heard he today nv go to sch.. Hope that tmr he will be going because I am going back to sch to meet EIleen..

2005-02-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Some of my class's boys at Grad Night.. I've gt my reason for putting this photo.. :P

Haiz.. Really nth much to say.. Feeling a bit down..

2005-02-19T22:26:00.000+08:00

Yesterday around evening time, went out with nigel and gang and yiling too. Both of us are the only gals.. Haiz.. We went marina bay to eat steamboat. They went for pool and after that eat all the way till 10 something..They really can eat lohz. Like pigs... Haha.. ANyway, after that, nigel say want to go my hse play mahjong.. ANything lohz.. SO, in the end, yanxi,nigel,weekiat,saihow and wilson came my hse but yanxi left after a while.. I joined forces with wilson but then still lose until very bad.. I lost $9.80 lohz.. (-_-").. That stupid sai how win $16.20.. Y so heng one?? haha.. They left at around 4.30a.m.. Haiz.. 5 more hours to sleep before I have to meet eileen,liting and min hui at SP for zhining's club carnival.. Nth much to say about today except that we went to pray at bugis and after that shop a while lohz... Left bugis at 4pm to go my aunt's house.. Just came back now.. Very down today.. DOn't know why.. Don't know what I am thinking anyway.. Hahahahahaha..

This entry is for FY...

2005-02-15T22:24:00.000+08:00

Kkz.. Since u send these 2 messages, it also means that u have seen a lot of my blog entries.. Well, since there's nothing to hide now, I might as well tell u everything.. U r right in everything that u wrote in ur 2 messages but u r wrong in 1 thing.. I treated u as my bestest friend once.. If I didn't, I would not have told u so much secrets but then I doubt u would believed me when I say u were my bestest friend because if u are still the past FY, u won't believe me.. U weren't annoying.. I nv did thought u were but ur smses every sunday were.. There's a difference between u and ur sms... Yes, yl and I had to act as if we weren't close because u were get jealous.. Knowin u too well, we know ur actions when u got jealous.. If u can't remember, I also can't help it.. Don't tell me u nv got jealous, only ur heart will know.. Seriously, there's no point to apologise.. U said unpleasant things and we did too.. So, we are equal.. After we broke off our friendship, I still harbour the hope of being friends again.. Yl knew it too but something happened that dashed my hope.. ANyway, there's no point raking up the past anymore.. It can only be blamed that we were too immature.. This wouldn't have happened if we talk it all out last year but what's the point of saying so much and asking so much and apologizing so much?? We can't change the history.. ANyway, I hope that u have a great future ahead and may u,yokeling,yinjun and lee juan pass ur O levels with flying colours.. By the way, they say 25th of feb might be getting our results so all the best and see ya soon.. :)

Happy Valentine's Day.. Muackz...

2005-02-14T21:31:00.000+08:00

Here's wishing all my frenz a Happy Valentine's Day.. THose with a partner, may u spend a wonderful day with ur other half.. THose single(like me), may u find a valentine soon to celebrate next yr's valentine's day.. haha.. Anyway, though I don't have a date or any flowers today, I am still very happy because I have all my friends with me.. Received quite a fair bit of valentine's presents from my friends(girls ar)... Hmmmmz.. ANyway, I must jia you liao.. Friends around me are already in relationships.. See them so happy also happy for them.. Got chong dong want to find a bf BUT single is nice too.. Haha.. But Hor, don't tell me to go be lightbulb lehz.. Very liang and also paiseh ehz.. Like I interrupt both ur date.. Haha.. Anyway, if really cannot, ur bf also going along, I don't really mind lahz because I already numb from becoming lightbulb liao.. hahaha.. kidding lahz.. anyway.. Have a great valentine..

Happy New Year's Eve... Had u taken ur dinner?

2005-02-08T19:30:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Happy New Year's Eve to all my pals out there... HOpe that all of u had a wonderful reunion dinner and that all of u will have a great brand new year... ANyway, too bored so decided to crap here.. Haha.. STarting from the issue that I had dyed back my hair.. SObsob.. A bit sad to see myself in black hair... Haha.. I crazy liao.. Yesterday after school, I went to orchard with ZHi Ning to do her shopping.. All went went well till 8pm when I felt so extra.. I am like a christmas light.. SO bright.. Haha.. SO, being a very clever gal, I slipped back home at 9.30pm or else people will keep staring at me.. haha.. Talked to Yiling over the phone all the way home.. Haiz.. Today school was so boring.. Waste my time.. If I knew, I would not have gone to school just like what ******** guy did.. Haha.. TOmorrow I will be going to Malaysia and will be back on thursday.. TOld my mum it was such a stupid thing to go back on wed and coming out on thurs.. TOld her to stay there till sunday but she said she had to work.. (-_-").. SUre a lot of ppl not coming to school on Firday one lorzzzz... By the way, I have decided to forego choir and joined dragonboat instead.. Haha.. MUst do something that I have not done before mahz.. TO have a brand new me, right?? Heehee....

So tired now... Very sleepy... ZzZzZzZzZzZzZz

2005-02-04T21:30:00.000+08:00

SO tiring.. Okay.. I had a fun day today.. Haha.. Went to SP's open house.. Before that... Aiyo.. WHen I ended class at 12 today, I had to wait for yiling till 12.30... So, I was helping to paint the banner(in fact, i was just fooling around)heheehe... So, in order to lend my services, I went down to the canteen to help them to collect the history notes.. heehee.. the ******** guy was collecting his too... ANyway, rushed all the way up again to pass them the notes and to collect back my bag.. was sweating all over when I met up with ling again.. Then, we walked to causeway pt for Mac lohz... Haha.. WHile we were catching the train, saw him again but he was in another direction.. Okay.. TOo bad lohz.. hahahaha.. Anyway.. The main thing that I want to say today is after going to SP, I've finally made a decision.. I am going to take Business Adminstration in SP(focusing on tourism and hospitality)... Hehehehe.. FInally made a decision.. SO happy!! Yeah!!

Nv go school today wor..... Heehee...

2005-02-01T19:17:00.000+08:00

I never went school today but don't get me wrong.. I never play truant hor.. It's because I must go hospital for my 2 brain scans.. Haiz.. Talking about my 2 brain scans... It's so tiring.. First go for the EEG.. Have to lie on the bed for 1/2 hr while having so many wires connected to my brain.. COnfirm look like a freak.. But no one else except the nurse saw lahz.. Haha.. AFter that, went for the CT scan.. Talking about this scan then make my blood boil.. Had to fast 4 hours for the scan.. Imagine not taking my precious breakfast.. sobsob.. so hungry.. Somemore this scan is the most painful.. Because had to inject some dye into my veins so that there's colour inside my brain to make it clearer... DOn't realy understand it.. Anyway, when the dye was flowing through my blood vessels, I almost vomitted... Haha.. Now I know why I have to fast.. Or else the whole room will be stinking with my vomit.. hahahahaha ... Yipee!! History test for SEA have been postpone to next monday.. But I am afraid I have to take the international history test tomorrow.. Just smsed my history teacher.. Hopefully I don't have to take it tomorrow.. Haha..

Haha.. Had A Fun Day Yesterday...

2005-01-30T11:24:00.000+08:00

Actually, we planned to go out with charissa and her kor yesterday afternoon but suddenly Ling developed rashes all over her body so she cannot go out lohz.. Then I also don't want to be extra.. SOmemore my mum was screaming at me for going out so often.. I will be going out with Eileen & Min Hui they all to Marina Bay mahz so to be on the safe side, I never go out with charissa and her Kor lohz. Ling.. U tk care hor... Rest well.. Anyway, I ard 4 left home because I meeting Eileen at 4.50 at city hall.. I reached city hall around 4.45.. Waited 15 mins for her.. (-_-").. haha.. I don't like to wait one lohz but no choice, stil must wait for min hui & kang rui.. Called Jason whether he's coming a not.. Then he say he at ang mo kio but he's coming to join us so the 4 of us had to wait for him lohz.. We went for bowling and I played terribly.. But I at least got a score of 64 which was a big improvement for me.. Haha... Tyco one.. Haha.. Went for steamboat at around 8.. ATe all the way till 10.30.. Haha.. Superb hor.. Went home with min hui because both of us going to the same direction.. Talked a lot inside the MRT.. Haha... Came home then talk to Eileen on the phone till 2.. Wanted to ask Min hui to join us but think she slept liao because her phone was switched off.. Haha.. ANyway, I had a lot of fun yesterday and got to know more about Min hui and EIleen which was a very meaningful thing to me.. Haha..See Ya!!

Very tiring but happy day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-01-27T19:47:00.000+08:00

So tired... PE was as expected, tough and straining.. But I had a great time before PE.. We had CLA first and after having 30mins of lesson, we proceeded down to the notice board to do the new year stuff... We do until 9.30 which was AO maths lecture.. The "toi toi" guy asked Eileen for liquid paper... Hahahahaha.. so funny... WHen we were having our 2and a 1/2 hour of break, we were chatting so much and laughing so much that I couldn't finished my lunch.. Hahaha.. Very funny lohz.. All the while, we were talking about the "toi toi" guy.. They dared me to talk to him but so many ppl surrounding him somemore yesterday I went and asked his name, wait he thought I like him.. Yikes! Better don't make any trouble for myself.. Haha.. TOday during the break, I had a wonderful view at ********.. Haha.. Thought he didn't come to school when I didn't saw him during assembly.. But apparantly, he was late because I walked past him when I was buying lunch.. Still no progress.. SO lousy... By the way, don't worry, my friends, I won't be quitting school because I had a long talk with my parents and they want me to finish the 3 mth course so as a fillal daughter, Of course I will listen to them.. SOmemore, I am having so much fun in school... Haha... Anyway, tmr very shiok because I am not going to school aas I have a check-up... WIll miss all my friends.. Till monday then, My friends...

Haiz.. I hate Thursday(tomorrow)... PE "rox"

2005-01-26T22:09:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Just finish editing my blog entries in case ppl got to know the person I am interested in.. Haha... Must keep a secret.. Haha.. Tomorrow there's PE, thinking of not going to school but that's so crazy.. Haha.. Don't go school because of PE lessons.. Thursday PE is always running 2.4... SIanz Lorz... Today I went for choir practise.. Dragon boat my 1st cca and choir my 2nd.. Quite fun lohz because there was no instructor yet so we had the warm-up excercise all to ourselves... There will be an instructor next week.. We also had to practise for a lunch time concert sometime in Feb.. Ling & I singing Too Lost In You and probably another song but we aven't confirmed it yet.. By the way, I am helping ZHi Ning to sell her carnival's tickets so friends of mine who are interested to go SP's carnival on 19th of Feb from 10-6 are welcome to contact me to get the coupons.. 1 coupon is only $5.. Please contact me asap.. Please! Please! Please buy from me or else I will cry.. Hahaha... By the way, about the ******** guy, I think can confirm he's 1988 liao.. Haiz... Must change target liao but he's really nt bad lohz.. Nv mind.. I can take it.. :~~~~~~~~~~~ hahahaha

Haiz.. I've tried so hard but to no avail..

2005-01-23T09:03:00.000+08:00

I am thinking of quitting school again because I think I am definately not going to JC.. I am thinking of quitting sch and then go and find a job so that at least there's some money to pay my poly sch fees... Haiz. It's just a thought.. Trying to find a job first.. Anyway, yesterday went to NGee Ann's Open house.. It's full of energy over there but the only thing that I loathe about ngee ann is that so many mountains to climb.. Wanted to go Nanyang one but then because going ngee ann so nv go nanyang lohz... SOrry ar, Eugene.. See quite a few shuai ge in the science stream.. Heehee.. THen after that, we followed charissa's kor hun into SP.. Haha.. WEnt to a place where his ah kor is a member.. We went to the arcade and play.. Very fun.. Then we went and pao jacuzzi.. Haha.. Very relaxing.. AFter that, we went ang mo kio to eat.. Saw junwei over there.. He's working there.. End of report... Haiz haiz.. Tons of homework awaiting me liao... Sayonara

Very very tired.. Yes!! TMr can finally rest...

2005-01-20T21:00:00.000+08:00

I have been slogging myself for the past week... THinking of quitting school but I've been trying very hard to continue... Nth much about school things except that I dislike economics so much... Because I hate the teacher... Teach until so fast... Can't catch her words also.. The rest of the subjects are alright.. I love MTA because the teacher lets us do a lot of interesting things like listening to Jay CHou's songs and do things based on that song.. Haiz.. I am not making any improvement with that ******** guy... He seems to know that I am looking at him because when I look at him, he will look back.. I die liao.. Don't know how old is he?? If he's younger than me, I say bye bye liao.. I don't like younger guys... Haiz... How I wish I can go and know him or at least talk to him.. I am so lousy... Haiz...

Hey.. Just a quick update on the ******** guy...

2005-01-14T21:40:00.000+08:00

HEY!!!! TOday I finally saw the ******** guy again... He was sick for 2 days(I heard the teacher asked him how he was feeling today)... HeeHee... I also finally got to know his name today... But I forgot liao.. Think something _____.. Cannot blame me mahz... I was having Economics lecture when the teacher called his name.. I was concentrating too much on the lecture so never quite catch his name.. Haha... SOmemore if he's younger than me, I sian liao.. Haha

Losing myself bit by bit... Why is this so??

2005-01-11T21:09:00.000+08:00

Today super boring because only gt 2 hours of lesson and 1 hour of PE... After PE, we had to wait for 3 hours till the next lesson which is GP(general paper).. So, we played detective and murderer.. Haha.. We the Arts students are way way relaxed than the Science students.. WHile the sci stream used those periods to study, we were playing all sorts of games.. Haha.. HeeEEE... Then we went for lunch before attending GP.. It was alright as the lecturer just say some things about GP.. Gt my 1st GP work.. Must hand in next week so got the whole week to do.. After that was History.. HEEHEE.. I almost doze off but I tried to keep my eyes open.. THe teacher's voice made one irresistable to fall asleep.. But I just keep stoning lohz.. After that, we went home.. 1 hour ago, I just read through my economics.. I studied very hard ehz so if I am unable to answer the teacher's questions, I can go jump down liao.. Haiz.. Seriously, I find it harder to survive in JC.. Not because of the work load or how tiring everyday deemed to be... I felt so lonely.. I've got friends but I am not close to them and I am always very quiet in class.. People even come and ask me why I am so cold and I never talk much.. I also don't know why this is happening.. I used to be so talkative and fun and crazy.. But now, I am like another person.. SO unlike me.. I hate the Patsy now...

Argh!! Today's lesson is super boring..

2005-01-10T20:05:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning, we had civics lesson all the way till 10am when we will have our break.. Haiz.. So sianz... Only 3 guys in my class.. The ******** guy is in other class...... Haiz.. CLA was quite fun because the teacher is fun.. History was alright but we already know the 3 assignments that we had to do for term 1... First day start lesson then tell us the dateline to hand in homework liao.. "AO" maths was still able to cope because we are starting on SETs which I had already learned... Then lunch lohz.. After that was Economics.. Oh Man!! I hate this lesson!! Because the teacher is ssooooooooooo strict.. SObsob.. Scares me off... I will hate to attend her lessons.. Luckily, there's none tomorrow... But must read 2 chapters before her lessons because she will ask questions.. ARGH!! Ling was supposed to wait for me till 3.30 but in the end she went home herself... Nv mind lahz.. I walked with my civics group friends lohz.. Let everyone be my witness... I am definately going Poly no matter how good my results may turn out to be.. Scully, in the end, I go ITE.. Haha.. KIdding lahz... See Ya.. Must go study liao.. Haiz....

Feeling very sleepy now.. Dozing off in few minutes,,

2005-01-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

Today woke up around 8 though I planned to sleep till 10.. In the afternoon, I went plaza singapura with Yi Ling.. We went to wrappa mania to eat... Both of us ordered the chicken wrap, mushroom soup and a drink.. The food was quite nice and there were a lot of mushrooms in the soup.. After that, went to World of sports to help my brother see his basketball shoes.. Planning to buy a pair of AND1 white red shoes for him.. MUst go home to discuss with my mum.. Ling also bought a pair of track shoes.. We also bought a teddy bear and a postcard for charissa's birthday.. Hmmz... AFter that, we went back liao because I was feeling weary... Ling also had to go and meet siong meng.. Came back and immediately slumped in front of the television.. Nth to do mahz... Nth much to say too.. SLeeping liao.. See Ya... Night!!

Yoz... It's the final day of the orientation prog..

2005-01-07T22:15:00.000+08:00

Just came back feeling very happy.. TOday was the campfire night and early in the morning, we went to SSS for the CCA Flea Market... I signed up for Dragon Boat, Interact Club, Entrepreneur Club and Canoeing.. But I can't possibly join everything so probably I will take interact club and dragon boat ba... AFter that, we moved back to IJC and then yiling and I went back to AI because they were having their CCA open house.. We got there around 1.35 and spoke to Mr Fong for quite a while.. At around 2pm, then we left AI.. I was already late because our grp wanted to meet at 2.. I only reached sch at 2.45.. Oops.. Late for 45 mins wor... I rushed back to be just in time for the cheer practise.. We were the 1st grp to perform and we did quite well... Then our Mr and Miss Aquila and Auriga went upstage for the Mr and Miss Innova Segment(the guy had to dress as Miss Innova while the gal has to dress ad Mr Innova)... It was really funny.. But then it start to get a bit dull because there r 20 grps performing.. THen the finale was a great one.. Everyone did the mass dance and sang a lot of songs.. haha... Can't wait till monday because we will be starting our class. I had my first choice... Hopefully monday, there won't be PE lessons for me or else have to take height and weight which is quite hateful.. Haha.. By the way, I have a new target liao so congrats to me for moving on.. Heehee.. Hopefully, I can succeed..

Wooz.. Today very high in school... Haha

2005-01-06T18:50:00.000+08:00

Early in the morning straight after morning assembly, we practised the JC's dance and then moved on to SSS... Over there, we had songs and then the teachers dropped a bomb on us.. We had to do the friendship dance and the worse part was that we had to do it with the guys as our partners.. (-_-")... So, the gals had to sit down to wait for the guys to "pick" them.. Another (-_-")... My first partner was a guy from the "B" team.. I was quite shy at first and so didn't hold his hands completely but he's very cute lor because he said " can you hold on tighter, it's very uncomfortable".. Haha.. So, I not so shy liao lohz.. Then we had to constantly change partners.. It was very fun and I enjoyed myself.. THen we had the mass dance.. Haha.. AFter the dance, suddenly very energetic and high.. Then we went back to sch for lunch(the sch catered for us so it was free food) before having the war game.. We had to go into our colour groups to fight the war.. Haha.. Very fun though I didn't play because too many ppl liao.. Haha.. Then lesson ends around 4 sth.. Tomorrow will be the campfire night.. Sure will be very high lohz.. Hhaha.. Can' wait till tmr...

A very tiring yet enjoyable day in school...

2005-01-05T22:08:00.000+08:00

Today is a super tiring day in school because we had a game from 9-12.30 and we had to run around woodlands town to solve 10 different places and take pictures with the destination.. We finished everything and came in third.. SO we will be having a bonus points of 40 but unfortunately we were deducted 5 pts away because they accused us of not waving when we are supposed to but then we did lohz.. Then they told us not to argue or else deduct 15 pts.. Stupid teacher.. Better don let him teach us.. After that, because we were only to report at around 1.30, we went to Eileen's(she's 1 of my teammate and she is half swiss, half chinese) house for lunch.. HEr mum's cooking was deliciious beyond words.. At around 2pm, we proceed to SSS for our dance.. We learned very fast and managed to finish learning the whole dance.. Haha.. Enjoyed the dance very much.. Long time never dance liao... Dancing is the only sport(if it's considered 1)that I've ever loved... Haha.. Today very good wor.. Around 4 sth then we end lessons liao.. Acually, JC life is very flexible.. WE can end anytime unlike scondary sch when we have to stick to the timetable.. Anyway.. See Ya!!

Sorry ar.. Today will update these 2 days' happenings..

2005-01-04T20:55:00.000+08:00

Monday (First day of school)

Ling's dad drove us to school.. Very excited and worried about it.. ( my hair lohz) Saw a lot of ppl.. Around 800 ba... THe principal went onstage to talk while we are in our seperate groups.. There's a total of ard 40 grps(I think)... I was in the Grp Aquila under the colour blue.. Ling is a diff grp frm me but we are under the same colour.. By the way, we got a goodie bag which contain 2 IJC shirts which we are supposed to wear everyday.. We went to our homerooms and then proceed to the stations for our icebreaker games.. I was quite crazy and so soon got myself warmed up to 14 other grp mates.. We will get points for our games and so we had to put in our fullest effort.. After that, we went for our lunch which was provided by the school.. The food was cold and not nice at all.. Then we had to proceed to the auditorium for our subject combination talks... Hmm.. Deciding between MTA( chinese Lit) or English Lit... After the seminar, we waited at the foyer for the science stream to come back from SSS(singapore sports sch)before painting our grp banner.. I nv slept well yesterday so having a headache so I never participated much.. No shuai ge in my grp(only gt 3 guys ehz).. Sob.. Haha.. After sch, went to causeway for dinner with Ling.. Ate half of the fish & chips.. Went back home and immediately went to bed after showering.. SO tired so decided to leave the subject combination form filling and the blog entries to tomorrow..

Tuesday(Second day of school)

WEnt back AI to get some thing before attending school.. Suay ar.. Get caught for my hair so go see VP lohz.. Told VP dyeing back my hair by today and that I already bought the dye which was quite true because I was too tired yesterday to dye back my hair.. We had some time to think the subjects that we want.. FInally decide to put Econ+Hist+MTA for my first choice and ECons+Hist+Lit for my second choice.. See fate lets me go where lohz.. After that, went to meet Ling for lunch because I am still not that close with my teammates... But felt very extra because I went and join her grp.. After lunch, all of us went to SSS.. FIrst time stepping into SSS and my thought was that "it's simply wonderful and magnificient".. We made use of their sch's auditorium for magazine talks.. After that, we had cheers and songs and our last task there was to learn a dance.. Had difficulties with some steps but gonna practise later.. heehee... Then we went back sch where our OGF(orientation grp facilitator) treats us to food that they have brought.. The last segment was telematch.. I participated in 1 game and was aching all over.. Still haven't recovered from yesterday's games.. Tomorrow we will be having a game around woodlands(some sort like amazing race).. Can die ar... KKz.. UPdate tmr.. See Ya

Haiz.. So late liao but I still haven't sleep yet...

2005-01-03T01:42:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Now writing in the dark.. A bit difficult but no choice.. If my parents know I haven't sleep yet sure kill me... But I am too nervous and worried to be able to fall asleep.. Nervous because tomorrow is my first day in Innova.. Don't know how well I can fit in.. Worried because I haven't dye back my hair yet.. To disobey school rules is not my policy of being a student but my mum told me to see whether they will catch me before dyeing it back.. Haiz.. Lyimg om my bed having lots of worse scenarios if they really catch me tomorrow.. Aiyo.. I know I shouldn't be worrying about all these kiddy stuffs but then I can't help myself.. If I get through tomorrow's stage, I vow to go and grab a black dye after school tomorrow.. Better pray that I do or else first day of school get scolding very suay one lehz.. WOn't have better lives if first day get scolding.. Haiz.. SUan le ba... No use worrying.. Gd night!!

Happy New Year.. It's a brand new year, guys..

2005-01-01T21:36:00.000+08:00

Friday 31.12.2004
Today is the last day of the year 2004.. This year, I had a fair share of ups and downs.. But in all, I felt that I had lived to my fullest though there was a period of time when I was really upset but I had already gotten over it.. Anyway, yesterday after going out with my aunt, I went to Bugis to meet Yiling.. Oops.. Let her wait for me, so paiseh.. Then we went shopping around.. I bought a lot of stationeries.. It was a very relaxing trip and I found that I am gradually forgetting him which was a very big news.. Ling didn't believed me but it's true.. COngratulations to me.. Haha.. I had stepped out of the past.. Now, I don't even think of him or the past anymore.. Haha... Okay.. Sticking to the original topic.. We took da tou tie and drank bubble tea.. After that, we decided to go Bishan to shop a while.. I bought a bandanna over there.. Then my mum called to tell me to meet her at SUn plaza so I nv go NP.. Hmm.. Over at sum plaza,I bought a dress.. SOmething that I nv bought before but there's always a first for everything, right?? Did I say that I will be going to Singapore Sports school for PE lesson?? heehee.. Cool, right?? I also think so but to think that everyday's lesson ends at 6pm makes me want to faint straight away.. haha..

Saturday 1.1.2005
It's a brand new year with lots of things that I want to do.. Firstly, is to go IJC to see shuai ge.. Haha.. Kidding lahz.. I not hua chi.. Haha.. Today, we should be going to Sentosa with chi peng(my son) and his firends but yesterday night, Ling and I pushed it away.. Got some things that we need to do mahz.. SOmemore, today the weather so bad.. Kick me out, I also won't want to step out of my house.. Haha.. SOmemore, 1.30pm got concert on channel 8.. Wouldn't miss it!! Got 5566 ehz.. So, laze at home lohz... Then my mum suddenly asked me my hair accepted in JC mahz.. HeehEE.. No choice mahz.. Wasted to dye it back ehz.. SOmemore, Not really that brown mahz.. See lohz.. If the sch catch me on the first day, then I go dye it back lohz but somemore I am feeling very uneasy.. Very scared they will ask me go home.. Haiz.. Then I will miss the orientation programme and miss watching shuai ge lohz.. Haha.. Here I go again.. Kidding lahz..

Hi... Very long nv write blog liao.. Finally I am back..

2004-12-30T19:34:00.000+08:00

Hi... Everyone?? Miss reading my blog??? Haha... I went Malaysia ar.. TOday then came back.. Hmm.. I had a great time at my ah ma's house.. Though not all my cousins went back but I still had a great time because I was so relaxed over there and when my mum said to stay till today then go back, I agreed because it was really great over there... WEnt shopping, talk to my cousin sister, just reading and listening to my discman.. Though these are normal stuff that I can do in Singapore.. I found it extra fun doing it over there.. Haha.. Maybe mind not right.. Anyway, I still love Singapore and my friends over here.... Haha.. Aiyo... Write 1 blog takes me almost half and hour.. Because must sms and also chatting over at msn.. Haha.. Very busy.. By the way, received a letter from Innova.. Must dye back my hair.. Sobsob.. Lazy lehz.. Thinking of another alternative.. Anyway, that letter wrote to tell me to report to school and go straight to my Orientation Grp.. Haiz.. Not the same with Ling ehz.. Haha.. But hor. bad news is every day's lessons end at 6... Wahz... Want to kill me ar?? Haha.. Tmr going back sch get sth then go check out bazaar.. Haha.. hen go shopping with Ling.. Ok.. End here liao.. Really must go bathe.. SO smelly.. Hahahaha

Hihi.. Me today so happy... haha.. So kuai le..

2004-12-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

Haha.. Just came back from Sentosa.. In the morning at ard 10, ling called to say wait for me at the yishun bus stop.. Kk Lohz.. I also reaching ma.. Then both of us went to Mrt Station to wait for the rest.. Aiyo.. Still haven't come yet so we go buy drinks first.. Then when come back, saw sai how.. Then Nigel and Kiki very late them come join us.. Stupid.. Always must wait for them.. Then when reach Harbour Front that time, kiki says must go Cold Storage to buy things.. They bought 6 big bottles of mineral water, 3 big packets of tidbits, 8 packets of nasi lemak and 1 honey glazed chicken.. A lot of food, right?? For 8 ppl only lehz.. Then after that we went Harbour Front Centre to eat..
At around 12 something, we finally reached Palewan Beach.. Nigel they all immediately go play volleyball with other ppl.. So ling and I play UNO lohz.. Haha.. After playing a while, so hot so we went down the beach.. Very cooling wor.. After that, I finally convinced Ling to go sit monorail.. So nice.. Though back very pain but I enjoyed the trip.. After 30 min, we came back liao.. Then we start to eat our Nasi Lemak.. Then we played heart attack and bluff with the rest of the guys... Then, Nigel and ee siong joined in so we decided to play murderer and detective.. Haha... Very funny, right?? Go beach play cards.. SO we sat on the sand playing that game lohz.. Haha... Quite a few times be murderer but nv get caught because too innocent mahz.. Haha.. Then decided to ask ling join me go to the other island where gt viewing towers.. So nice, very relaxing.. Talk a bit with Ling about Foxy.. Hmm.. No longer feels sad when I talk about him.. Kan Kai Le Ba.. haha.. Then 6 sth liao, so decided to go toilet change and go mac to eat.. Say farewell to the guys.. A bit bu she de but nv mind lahz.. Sit monorail back.. Haha.. My favourite thing.. Then after eating mac with Ling, go sit train.. WHile waiting for the train, haha, saw nigel they all, haha, So much fate... Then went back together lohz.. Today, I enjoyed myself very much but just now while I was blogging, quarrel with my mum.. Now very very sad.. Haiz.. SUddenly feel like I shouldn't go Innova study and instead, go work.. Haiz.. Thinkin of work and study at the same time.. Wait sms zhining to see whether she gt any part- time job.. Haiz..

Going out in half and hours time...

2004-12-21T08:49:00.000+08:00

At first, yesterday planning to go Sentosa.. But the stupid Nigel and kiki say wat only 5 person, so today then go.. Because Sai How and Yan Xi today then free.. Ok lohz.. Today go sentosa lahz.. Don duan me can liao.. Then yesterday night, Nigel called again to say Yanxi not going.. (-_-")... But never mind, today we still going.. Haha.. The birthday photos came out liao.. Yesterday, went to meet JieYing to take the photos... Very nice wor.. Haha.. Can't help but to save most of them.. Then ar, yesterday slept the whole day.. Why?? Because having headache again.. Torture me the whole night.. Still have it today but not so worse liao.. TOld ling to bring panadols.. Wait must take it or else will worsen the condition.. Oh man, I hate it when I have headache.. Makes me so moody.. Don't know go sentosa will be very bored a not because so few ppl but it beats being at home.. Even more sian.. Not good for me.. Haha.. Must go out breathe fresh air then good.. Haha..

Suddenly, I felt a sense of loneliness washing past me...

2004-12-18T22:18:00.000+08:00

Suddenly, felt very depressed and lonely.. I don't know why suddenly like that.. It feels like as if no one will ever know the things that I've done during my holidays.. Next week, I going back to my ah ma's house in malayisa.. I've always hated malaysia because I love singapore very much.. Can say that i am a very loyal citizen... I have always felt that my mum hated singapore so much because she was a malaysian and she loves her country very much and that she's the only singaporean among her brothers, sisters, brothers-in-law and sisters-in-law.... Can say that we are the only singaporean family at my ah ma's house.. I have always loathe going back... I don't hate my relatives but don't particularly like them either... But I love my ah ma very much.. Going back almost seem a torture too much.. That's the only thing that I've ever hate about Foxy.. He's a malaysian.. But now, I've change my mind.. Maybe it's because of the loneliness that's killing me that changed my mind.. I suddenly can't wait to go back and even wish that we can stay longer over there... Being here in Singapore makes me think of too much unhappy things and of how lonely I've been.. Even if I have nothing to do over there, at least there's still things for me to see because my ah ma's house is a very very big one with a big garden and a farm at the back.. Even seeing those hens walking about entertain me... That's how sad I've been.. I am not tellig anyone when I will go back because I don't think no one will notice ba.. I can't wait to be there, to eat the dishes that my ah ma cooks.. The place I hated most suddenly become the place that I longed to go.. Ironic, right?? Can't wait to go to Malaysia and can't wait for the term to start.. I want to make new friends.. New friends that will make me forget the past..

Yes! I finally got what I want...

2004-12-17T10:05:00.000+08:00

YES! YES! I got into Innova JC.. Yesh!! SO excited now.. I can go study liao... Too good to be true.. Haha... Wait then I come update on my events... GOing out soon... Heehee

Saturday
Say want to update but in the end too tired to come online.. Went to school outside and pass the tickets to soo mei and viven. They told me that on tuesday, there's a christmas pasrty.. DOn't know want to go a not.. See first lahz... After that, go fetch my brother then go timezone play.. Long time never play until so happy liao... Next monday going sentosa, quite excited because I rotting soon.. Very very bored at home.. Haiz.. Better don't get excited first wait they say don't want to go then I faint... Haha

Haha... Suddenly want to come online and write a new blog..

2004-12-17T01:59:00.000+08:00

Just now while I was watching My MVP VAlentine, Tai Zi said something of his relationship with Xiao Xi and I suddenly grasp hold of that sentence.. Till now, it still stays fresh on my mind. "Xi Huan Yi Ge Ren, Bing Bu Dai Biao Yao He Da Zai Yi Qi. Qi Ma Wo He Da De Kuai Le Hui Yi Shi Mei You Ren Ke Yi Qiang Zou De, Bao Kuo Da Zui Ai De Ren"... In english, it means that "loving someone doesn't mean that have to be together, at least there are the happy memories together that no one can take away, including the person that he loves most". This sentence left a huge impact in my heart, as if this sentence had already imprinted itself in my heart... I finally understood.. If he's happy, I will be too... We had happy memories and those are valuable memories that will never be forgotten... He will become a part of my past when I moved on. Haha... Never know that 1 drama can teach me such valuable lessons that I have yet to learn till now... Wo Mei Shi Le, Wo Ye Bu Zai Wei Ni Diao Yen Lei Le Ying Wei Ni JIang Hui Shi Wo De Guo Qu Jiu XIang weijie Yi Yang... A person who keeps falling, will learn the correct technique to stand up on her own... And that's my goal!!

A boring and long day jus pass....

2004-12-16T21:23:00.000+08:00

Today is the most sianzz day of my life.. Sleep until 12, then make lunch for my 2 brothers.. Yesterday, 3 am then sleep.. Want to sleep but not able to sleep because too much things on my mind, can't find a way to shake it off so go online lohz.. Then I went and do something that I would enjoy in the past but yesterday to my surprise, I felt so stupid and lousey... Almost want to just log off and go sleep... So, anyway, very late then sleep so that's why woke up late.. Then spend the whole afternoon reading a book and slump in front of the TV... Never felt so bored in my whole entire life before.. Just now, received a call from soo mei, tell me go back school hand in the Leo tickets.. So, tomorrow must go back school lohz but cannot go in because of my dyed hair.. Wait they chased me out so it's safer to stand outside and pass it to them.. Tomorrow will be another boring day for me but then tomorrow I wil know the posting of the JC.. Haiz... Have to endure 4 days of boredorm before I can go sentosa play.. Rotting soon... Argh! I will become a worm soon... If I know so bored, I should have go find job earlier on.. SIanzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz!!!!!

Haiz.. WhY mUsT tHis HaPpEn??

2004-12-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

This morning, woke up around 11 then on my hp.. A guy friend,A, sms me to say he and his gf, B, had broken up because B's dad oppose... After seeing this msg, I felt very sad because they were really in love.. A wanted me to go console B.. SO, I went and talk with B and decided to arrange a meeting for them next monday. Though they had broken up, it's not easy to forget things that easily so it will be better if they meet and talk it out.. Hopefully, they can find a way out.. I, on the other hand, will help in whatever I can... Wait for my good news ba.. Then I went online to check things.. THen, nigel came and talk to me.. Say Foxy came back from malaysia last night drunk... I was so shocked.. His mother let mehz?? THen nigel say he's unhappy so drink to drown his sorrows?? Maybe things have gone wrong between his and candy?? I know lingkeeps telling me not to talk rubbish but maybe one day, my instincts may prove to be true?? ANyway, Nigel asked where I was going so I said go NP have lunch lohz.. SO, he wanted to tag along and want to pulled FOxy too.. I anything lohz.. I also meeting ling mahz.. Then at around 1pm, wait until my legs want to break liao, then nigel finally came followed by ling.. We went food court eat lohz.. Then ling asked about Foxy's thing.. Then Nigel told me he knew about the letter thing and that Foxy was uncertain about the answer and he told them that he may not give an answer.. I also never asked for an answer mahz.. Nigel wanted me to ask him but I rather not to have an answer.. Heehee.. Then ling went off to meet her hubby while I waited for my cousin to come .. Nigel was waiting for kiki and Foxy.. So, in the end, I went off without seeing kiki and Foxy.. End of My Day.. Because when I came home, I went to sleep liao so nth to write..
Sign off,
Patsy

2004-12-15T11:29:00.000+08:00

(From left to right): Charissa, Wen ZI, Shan, Ning and Me...

2004-12-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

My bdae photos.. Me with the stupid wen zi.. Hahaha

2004-12-15T11:26:00.000+08:00

Grad Night Photo! 5N1 Gals Rox 4 Eva...

Happy, Happy and bouncey.. Boing Boing!!

2004-12-14T21:18:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Just now while I was reading through all my blogs, I suddenly realised that a lot of my entries are about sad things and Foxy.. I think those reading my bog also feel very sianz because keep reading the same thing all over again about him.. Haha... See, here I go again.. Haha.. So, I must update some happy things but there doesn't seem to be any.. Haha. Because these few days, I was rotting at home.. Either sleeping or infront of the comp or lazing on my sofa watching tv.. Haha.. Suddenly, I can't wait to go back to school... To do homework again.. Haha.. I must be very crazy but that is what I have een thinking these few days.. If I can't get into Innova, I will be very disappointed.. Really.. Hmm.. My friends in Poly are waiting for sch reopen or already open liao.. Hope you all have a great semester.. So envious of u all.. Heehee.. I really miss those times when I was kept busy with sch things.. So fun... Nt like now.. Rotting away.. Sobsob.. Hahahahahaha

Hmmm... Nth much to say.. Haha

2004-12-13T21:03:00.000+08:00

Today at around 2, I went to meet ling at causeway.. We going to buy bag.. But first, we went to food court to eat... In actual fact, is I eat, she watch.. Haha.. Then I suggest go see Innova JC after we bought the bags.. So after we bought the bags, we went to the MRT station to see the map buy never see anything.. Haha.. So, I told yiling we rather don't walk wait lost our way and also the weather so hot, I rather stay and home and sleep.. Hee... Then we go take 965 lohz but then ling's hubby call so have to go take 962.. While we waited for the bus, we talked about Foxy's thing again... Haiz.. Suddenly, become very moody.. Ling said that YanXi should know the answer but the problem is Yanxi would have told me if he wants.. Anyway, I told her that to be able to forget a person, it's because another has entered my heart but to be able to do that now is a very tough thing... So, what I can hope now is to be able to go and look for my new phase of life.. Hohoho... Ling said she cannot look at shuai ge so I helped her to look lohz.. Hahahahaha.. Smart, right???

Relaxed, Happy and Refreshed after the chalet

2004-12-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hi.. I just came back from my family's chalet on friday.. Very happy because it's a gathering among all my relatives from my dad's side.. On friday, I played a whole night of mahjong.. Quite lucky because got win money.. Haha.. Must be because brithday.. Thru the whole mahjong session, my aunts keep teasing me about FOxy(my cousin told them about the game thing during grad night).. My sixth aunt saw him before but thinks he too short and too white.. Haha.. He changed liao wor.. Haha... So have to suffer the whole night of teasing.. Then went to bed at aeound 5 am... Nv sleep much but not tired because I hardly can find a reason not to sleep.. Then the next morning went swimming with my nieces, cousins and my bros... Very fun because my cousin brought her baby to go swimming.. The baby so cuteeee... Haha... Then during evening that time bbq cum bdae celebration.. The celebration is for all those born in december.. We had a great time.. I was enjoying myself thoroughly when my cousin showed them the grad night photos.. SHe got take the 2 of us together.. Die until cannot die... SO.. More teasing again lohz but luckily she didn't played the video of us holding hands or I can jump into the nearest drain.. They said that he look like ah beng because of his ear ring and his coloured hair.. Haha... Then on sunday afternoon while we were barbecuing again, my second aunt said that Foxy looks like he like me ard 70 to 80 percent.. I almost laughed out loud because it seemed the almost opposite... Just now, while I was eating my cake, my mum said that that's why Foxy don't dare to call her and look her into her eyes when he came my home last time.. Because we are together.. Hohohohoho.... Like real... We are almost strangers lohz.. For me lehz... I have really given up liao so now looking ard for my next target and hopefully the next target will like me.. So.. Cheers to me being 17 and to me finally able to kan de kai.... It doesn't matter whether he gives me a reply a not liao because any answer doesn't make any difference liao because a Yes or No will still end up the same.. We have drift too far apart and to find the close feelings again is a very very hard thing to do and if it's a No, my heart will not be able to take rejection... A No is a cruel thing that will ever happen to me so I rather stay this way.. I won't get to see him liao mahz so I can give up easily.. Jia You to Patsy!!

Birthday Celebration and More.....

2004-12-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

Today I celebrated my bdae though I am supposed to be born tomorrow.. Haha.. No lahz.. Because tomorrow's for my family mah... Anyway, 15 friends celebrated with me.. They are as follow: Ling, ning, Sm, Joe, Charissa, Hui shan, Hui wen, Nigel, Yanxi, Sai How, Wee Kiat, Eugene, Jie Ying, Alex and ANdrew Yeo... WE went to K-ster for karaoke.. Haha.. Very fun because non-stop singing for 5 hours.. Before Ling, Ning and I went to meet them, they came my house and told me to change into a short skirt and a spaghetti blouse.. Aiyo.. SOmemore, still make my hair... Suddenly transform into a lady.. Then we go meet them lohz.. Haha.. We were late.. Oops.. Haha.. Then when we were singing, suddenly at around 4 something, our room's lights were turn off and Eugene asked me whether got saw candles a not.. Huh?? Haha.. Yuan lai they bought a bdae cake.. Haha.. So touched wor.. Then they force Foxy to kiss me.. Huh again?? WHat?? Luckily, at last only kiss my hand.. They told me to wash but they don't know that in fact after he kissed it, I immediately wipe it on Ling's skirt.. Haha.. (To Ling: haha.. You don't know, right? Don't get angry hor)... Then went home washed it with soap liao.. Hoho... After that, went to SMith street to eat but only left with Ning, Joe, Sai How, Wee Kiat, Yan Xi and Jie ying.. Don't blame the rest lah because they got things mahz.. Haha.. See.. I so good.. Then went home with Yan Xi, Sai How, Jie Ying and Wee Kiat... On the way back, Ning called to say that when I reached home, I have to search for a present that she's hided earlier before... Haiz.. SO went home and search lohz.. Give me clue also no use until Ning said that she's hidden it in a book.. Hey.. I got so many books ehz... But heng ar, she hided it in the Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire so quite easy to find lohz.. Then go open presents lohz..
Ning: Gave me a ring and the shirt and skirt..
Ling: Necklace, Stars, Moon and star, Ear ring, A card and a bag
Ling, Charissa and Farhanah: Bear
Hui Wen: mousey (haha.. That gal thought it's kukumalu) and a card
Hui SHan: Photo Frame
Shaun: Bear
The gals in my class: Bear again
Nigel and company: the bdae cake
Haha.. So many presents this year.. Later on at 12, I am going to wish my 3 wishes.. Haha.. This year very happy because I have received 4 bears in total and also because I had so many friends with me.. Thank you very much and will miss you all... One more thing... About Foxy.. WHat should I do?? Joe and Ning told me not to give up... But shouldn't I??? I really don't know..

Can't anybody just tell me what's going on??

2004-12-06T23:14:00.000+08:00

I feel like everybody else but me know what's going on.. Why is it that till now I am still walking around in the dark looking for a light?? Is it that I have to wait forever?? I still have my life and my world doesn't evolve around me but nobody wants to tall me the answer.. Blog, you know what, sometimes I really wish tnat he would say that he don't like me anymore because at least I know what's the ending and I could start another story elsewhere but no, I can't close this book... Because the ending is still dragging.. A happy or a sad ending?? I don't know but I want to know how it ends because without having an ending, I will never move on carrying false hope and this hope inside me will grows like a tumour each day till the day when there's no cure for it.. I hate this feeling so I just want to know the answer so that I can end the tumour and move forward. When can I ever do that?? Can someone tell me??

Happy and Devastated

2004-12-06T10:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was my grad night..I enjoyed myself and received presents from my friends too.. Very happy about that. Haha.. Yesterday, there were quite a lot of games and one of them was mahjong paper... Each class has to send out 2 representatives(1 boy and 1 gal)... So, I was pulled in to join that game and so was he(Foxy)... WE cleared the first 2 rounds easily.. But in the 3rd round because the paper was so small, he hold my hand.. My feeling was that why his hands so cold.. haha.. But I only noticed whether his feet will touch the ground and I never take notice of mine so we had to end that round.. Haha.. but luckily we ended the round because as the paper get smaller, the guy even had to carry the gal.. Whew! Lucky me.. Then through kiki, I gave him the letter but he never did sms me back.. I guess there's really no hope at all.. Haiz.. Forget it lahz.. t's not the first time I failed in love so I can easily stand up again.. Right?? Can I??

Finally cheering up a bit.. Really...

2004-12-04T21:44:00.000+08:00

These few days, very very sad, just now went to read ning's blog.. Hmm, finally realised that both ning and ling were very worried when I cried that terribly.. Don worry lahz.. I am fine now and thanks for the concern.. Heard that Ling got some plan with Wenzi tomorrow on grrad night.. A bit worried now.. Haha.. Today went my cousin's house and she took me to Plaza Singapura to buy heels to wear tomorrow.. Haha.. Tomorrow from my head to toe, all would be sponsored by my relatives.. Haha.. So blissful.. DOn't have to worry that much in pairing clothers and shoes.. HahA.. Warning to everyone.. Please don't go eat Plaza Singapura's ice chendol because not nice one and the green green jelly felt like rock to me.. Hmm.. Very excited about tomorrow.. Can't sleep tonight liao.. haha

A very sad and very confused situation

2004-12-03T21:50:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Very very confused now.. Let's not talk about the confusing matter first. Today, I went to dye my hair (seems like reddish- brown to me) and my aunt-cum-godma bought me black outfit for my grad night this sunday.. The day that I had been waiting for is finally drawing near but I am not excited at all... In fact, I dread it.. Maybe it's because my heart is confused.. Very! Haiz.. Yesterday was the worst day of my life... Till now, I still haven't made a choice about him.. Maybe I really should give up.. It's the right thing to do now but why is my heart so painful?? It's hard to give up after liking him for almost 1 year... I really really can't bear to give up but I really have no other choice.. I don't dare to love anymore.. Yesterday, Ling asked me is it I really like him very much.. I think nobody ever know how much I really like him... To the extent that (ling) you will never believe it..
To Love is a quick process but To Forget is a slow and torturing situation...haiz
While I was typing this blog, yanxi suddenly come and talk to me thru msn... He say that " don worry lah.. he will understand one.. you have to explain it to him. must untie this knot first"... These few words changed my world around...
What to do?? I really don't know.. Haiz... Would I regret it for life if I don't tell him how I feel?

2004-12-01T23:55:00.000+08:00

Me, Ling and Ning.. Photo that we took today.. Nice hor??

Having fun and partying away...

2004-12-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Wooz... Everyday is an outing day to me because I am always going out.. Hmm.. I really had lots of fun with ling and ning but a bit worried and scared too because I am not sure what they gonna do on my birthday.... Must be mentally prepared first.. haha... Puit87 is my past, a past that I would forget easily because these kind of friends isn't worth my time at all... On monday, I went temple with my mum and had the shock of my life when my mum thought that Foxy is my boyfriend... Haha.. Not the truth then my mum go and believe it... Talking about my parents, my parents and my 2 brothers going malaysia for some event tomorrow.. Haha.. The house is all mine so I calling the guys and ling over for mahjong session but I already told my parents.. Obviously, my parents did not object lahz.. Haiz.. Though it's still early but I am already getting worried over my O levels results.. By the way.. The singapore idol is Taufik.. I admit that his vocals are very powerful but I think he lacks those things that Ken call X-factor which only exists in Sylvester.. Sylvester got those special and extra ingredients that's missing in Taufik's performance... Hmm... Watching those competitions, how I wish I could join some competitions with Ling... haha

Sad things all happen to me these few days..

2004-11-28T23:20:00.000+08:00

It's barely a week since we took our last paper when I got the news from ALicia on friday that serena had passed away.. I thought she was kidding but when I heard her choked voice, I knew it was true.. How can such a young girl die just like that.. SHe barely tasted her next pace of life.. Then, today something hit me hard in the face.. I can stop dreaming that Foxy will like me.. It's impossible and I knew it very well but yet I let my imaginations run wild.. Haiz... Tomorrow is serena's chu bin day and I will be going.. Not only will I have to face that a friend is gone, I also have to face him, the person that will make my heart cry out with pain.. Can I ever find that someone who loves me just as I love him?? I doubt so.. I really doubt so...

Hi.. Blog.. Long time no see............

2004-11-26T09:43:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. It's seem ages since I hyave written in this blog and lots of things had happened.. Let's talk about the most recent case... Yesterday, I went shopping with Zhi Ning, Yiling and Zhi Ning's friend Yi YUn.. We had lots of fun together and it made me feel more and more that I really don't miss those times when we were with Puit87... It's actually quite fun to get to know new friends and being close with my best friends... Hmm... Still haven't decide what to wear on Prom Night but I must wear a very very nice dress... Can't wait till that day.. On tuesdat, I went out with Eugene and Zhi Ning.. Haha.. Very fun but keep being "shoot" by them.. Almost want to knock the wall... That stupid Eugene.. Think he like that girl but keep saying that they are very good friends... Act what act lahz.. You think you superstars ar so must say very good friends... Then when I went out with ling, nigel, yanxi, kiki and foxy on monday, I found out a very very sad thing.. Maybe it's time that I gave up on foxy after all but it's hard when everyone is telling me not to.. How I wish I know what he's thinking then I won't be that miserable now... BYe.. Blog...

Very very very and absolutely upset now....

2004-11-11T22:47:00.000+08:00

I really can't believe it.. She accused me of blaming her and saying that she's annoying.. When did I ever say that?? I can swear that I never say those words before. I finally see her true colours.. Add the rest of my classmates in that a/c so that she can write those accusing things... No wonder she never put it for all to see because all that are untrue. I never thought she would do that... I am very very sad. Because even though I never treat her as my best friend, I still regard her as a fren...

I am in a deep dilemia now...

2004-11-06T18:36:00.000+08:00

From last thursday onwards, my life isn't the same at all.. I have given up in him, really given up.. Not because I don't have the patience or the courage to wait for him. It's just that I don't have time for this thing anymore.. Not because I am having O levels now, even if it's after that, my decision is still the same.. Now, all I can do is study and after the whole thing, work.. Eugene once said that my friendship is so exciting that it can be put in a serial but now my life is getting more and more exciting. Last thursday, I found out that now my family's name and responsibility is in my hands... It's getting heavier and heavier on my shoulders.. Making sure that there's peace in my family is now my priority.. I cannot be so selfish to think for only myself so even if I really really don't want to give up, I have got no choice. I don't lead a normal life.. My life is full of twists and turns everyday. EVen unbelievable things can happen to me and I have met with unexplainable things too.. If I said it out, I don't think anyone will believe me. I really have no choice, all the things that I do affects my family. People may think how serious can this be? Well, I dare to say that it's pretty serious. Not even my positive outlook can save it. So, though he may never get to see this blog, I still want to say sorry... Really sorry! Yiling, you may think that I am just saying some ridiculous things but I simply cannot love anymore.. Maybe in the future when I have done what I should done but not now..

Hi.. I am back after so many days...

2004-10-31T20:58:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. My monitor spoil so these few days never update my blog.. HaHa.. Because of this, I am going to change a brand new screen.. HaHa... Blissful.. Yesterday, I went out with Zhi Ning and we had a fun time.. Yesterday's dinner was the most craziest dinner that I ever had.. We spent more than 1 hour eating and the dishes that we ordered were all sour and hot(KOrean cuisine) and after that we went to eat cold dessert.. Haha.. Luckily, today I didn't have diarrhoea.. Then we shop around for Eugene's present.. Ask him what he like, he say pokemon.. (-_-").. So, we intended to treat him dinner and maybe movie bahz.. But he declined.. Hurt our feelings.. HaHa.. Kidding.. But we are going to do what we supposed to do.. HaHa.. You better watch out, Eugene... Tomorrow onwards, I will be taking O levels so the nxt few weeks, my presence in blog will be missing.. ALl the best and Good Luck to myself and al my friends.. HaHA... Sayonara!

My world was in turmoil today.....

2004-10-25T22:32:00.000+08:00

Today has been the most exciting day in my whole life or dare I say, should be my brother Edward... Yesterday night, I slept at 4 a.m so when I woke up in the morning, I decided not to go to school.. But I still had to go to school to open the classroom door as I have the key to it, you see... So, at 6.30 a.m, I woke Edward up, told him to get ready his own things and then I left for school.. When I came home, I was surprised to see that his shoes was still outside.. WHen I hastily unlocked the door and ran inside, his things were stil left unattended as it is.. The time was already 7.15.. So, I quickly woke him up and rushed him to school.. Luckily, his school was just a 5 min walk...
7.30 a.m, the doorbell rang, it was Edward.. He said that every school gate was locked and he couldn't got in.. So, I told him not to go to school.. 8 a,m. his teacher called to ask why wasn't he in school.. So, I lied that he was not feeling well(and from his pale face, he was indeed a bit sick.. sick from the shock, i guess).. His teacher then asked whether is his condition serious... He was having a EL big test!! Ohmigosh.. I had to once again rushed him to school, my father insisting that I went with him because he's too timid.. Well, I guess a good sister is like that.. So, I followed him to school... In the end, I wanted to get some sleep so I didn't go to school but because I was so worried about his case, I didn't sleep a wink.. I am going to turn into a panda soon.. Luckily, it was just a listening comprehension and it only started at 8.30.. Phew!! He was very lucky..... So, this lesson teaches us that always have an extra alarm clock in handy.. HaHa

Very very sick and weak now

2004-10-23T21:34:00.000+08:00

Stupid!! Fall sick again.. Having a headache and fever all at once.. Now the whole body is very weak but still can type words.. Just took medicine but can't fall asleep now even though the medicine was supposed to cause drowsiness but I just can't be able to fall asleep.. Better get well soon or I will be in a big shit... Haiz.. No mood to write so end liao..

2004-10-22T22:15:00.000+08:00

This photo was taken the day before... I like this photo very much because well, u can see that it's a candy house and I love candies... So.. haha

Hello!! Fun Day Today........A lot of thingz to say.. haha

2004-10-21T22:11:00.000+08:00

HaHa.. Saw Eugene today while I was waiting for Yi ling at Yishun Mrt Station.. Change hairstyle again.. Heard himm saying that he's retaking his english so all the best.. You can definately do it.. Get a C5 or better hor.. Haha.. Well, I went to bugis with yiling today.. At first, we want to go eat MAC because got the hello kitty but very crowded so we went MOS burger to eat.. We waited very long and Yiling keeps saying that must be the teriyaki burger too difficult to cook so take such a long time.. Then we go shop shop and more shopping.. Got a lot of harvest today.. Haha.. I bought a present for Zhi ning(but shh, cannot say), 5566 cd, a very very cute pen, a handphone accessory and pencils for my nieces... Then, we went to play arcade and I got a bubble thing and a Hi-5 keychain(yiling give me)... We also went to take pictures.. Haha.. Very nice.. If you want to see, the next few days can go my friendster a/c to see... After that, I went to my cousin's house.. That's when the bad part comes... Puit87 smsed me and ask me whether we can stay as friends.. Not that close as before but still on talking terms.. I don't want but I don't really know how to tell her... Then, when yiling said that maybe I should go back to friends with her, I was a bit angry.. If I chose to be friends with her in the first place, I wouldn't have break the friendship with her.. As I have said before.. I HATE liars and betrayers... She spoiled my perfect day... Ok.. back to the happy part.. I watched S'pore Idol and I still feel that Sylvester is VERY handsome and cool.. Shuai!! His voice has a husky tone in it and when he sings, it shows of his feelings and it suited him perfectly... By the way, Eugene, I WON'T be your classmate.. At most your junior... HaHa... All the best in whatever you do to all the people out there...

2004-10-20T14:31:00.000+08:00

To my friends.. Frenz 4 Eva

HaHa... I must be crazy but that's the way I am...

2004-10-20T14:24:00.000+08:00

This blog is for yiling because she keeps wanting me to find a person that will accompany me... You know lahz.. A guy, she means... But that's fat hope for her because I will never get into a relationship.. Not now, Not after O level, Not anymore.. HaHa.. Kidding... Friends of mine looking at this slot must be thinking that I don't mean what I say.. But it's rather hard for me to get into a serious relationship because I still want to play my single life.. Having another partner will take up too much of my fun time.. Hohohoho.. So, ling, no use rushing me and whoever he is.. HaHa....

To Eugene: ZHi ning's blog address is zhining87.blogspot.com
To Zhi Ning: Gene is Eugene and his blog address is darkgrey.blogspot.com
To the both of you: Good Luck in your poly exams... Don't stress yourself!
To Yi Ling: Good Luck for your O levels.. It's only 12 days away from it... Don't get too over excited at the thought of it...

Must put some positive outlooks from my life...

2004-10-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. I guess my blog is rather sad so in order to entertain my blog visitors, I have decided to talk some happy things in my life.. I have got a happy family, great friends and an exam that I can't wait to get over it.. HaHa... To think that after 14 days, I will be having one of the major exams in my life, I can't help but feel excited.. I love to take exams especially chinese, english and combined humanities but I am not looking forward to science... Then starting of next year, I will be studying in Innova Junior College(if my application is approved)... haha.. this thought excites me and pushes me further when I am preparing for my O level exam... Because by doing well, I can have more choices when I am choosing the next level of my life.. For friends that are preparing for their exams, be it O level or poly exams, ALl the Best and Do your best in everything that you do.. Jia You!

Very very nervous and scared now....

2004-10-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

I am very very nervous now because tomorrow I am having my practical and I am so scared.. I hate science practicals.. Last time during prelim, I broke 1 test tube and toppled over 1 whole bottle of litmus paper just because my hand was shooking so badly.. My science teacher even gave me a deadly stare and scolded me for wasting the litmus paper.. Not that I want it but how I know my hands would shook so badly.. I seriously hope that there will not be any major incidents tomorrow not even minor ones.. Haiz.. I wont be able to sleep tonight.. Somemore, if the paper tomorrow is a difficult one, I can go jump down liao.. Haiz. haiz... Haiz...

Snowballing into a bigger mess

2004-10-15T21:59:00.000+08:00

Things are getting more and more complicated and it's like there would be no end to it.. I don't even know if this thing would ever be solved because it's like no one can really tell me the answer.. I have been very very cold towards them in school because I hate liars and people who don't deserved my trust.. As I have said before, if you are my friend, you would have my utmost respect and friendship, but if you don't.. well, that's not my problem already.. Seriously, I am a bit upset because I thought that I would have a better and smooth friendship in secondary school than I had in primary school but I think the government up there don't like me to have too many friends so that's why... haha.. but I'm okay with it.. really..

Things gt more and more worse...

2004-10-13T21:36:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. I found out more and more things day by day.. Now, I even found out that actually I had lost 2 friends... YJ cannot be trusted at all.. I should have known it earlier.. I never did expected that she would let Puit87 see the letter.. When people betrayed me, I won't treat them well... She better be aware of my cold side because I can be very cold when I want to... Haha.. We just broke our friendship and they are turning bad.. Haha.. Skipped the last period ehz?? Such despicable act, they also can do it.. Puit87 very funny... Told so more lies to us and pushed all the blame to us?? But guess no one believed her because a lot of people know what a person she is.. So, I just go on with my life and ignored them forever...

Feeling perfectly alright after so much things...

2004-10-12T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. Today my sis and I told Puit87 that we really ending it once and for all.. I don't know why but seriously, I am not the least upset at all. Maybe part of me has already know long ago that this would happened and I have long prepared for it.. But I never thought that it would came too soon.. Nonetheless, I'm glad that it's finally over.. I can still make new friends when I reached poly.. I never thought that she would tell lies to get her way.. I never did expected her to become like that and Yin jun much worse.. I am very disappointed in her.. WE told her not to give the letter to fang yean but yet she let her see it.. Guess our friendship with yin jun is gone too.. It's true that you can only trust the few to stand right by you throughout.. Now then I finally understand and I regretted for not knowing it earlier... But seriously, Ling, stop harping on and on about that you destroyed both her and my friendship.. I DON'T CARE MUCH... Because I would never make friends with a person that is a betrayal because I never know when she would betrayed me...

2004-10-09T21:59:00.000+08:00

This picture on the other hand is for Eugene who, I believed, is down with a cough and headache.. Hope you are well soon...

2004-10-09T21:58:00.000+08:00

This picture is for my sis who loves winnie the pooh very very much.. Hope you like it!!

Terrible and much more terrible

2004-10-09T21:39:00.000+08:00

Sigh sigh sigh!! Puit87 is getting from bad to worse.. Keeps bugging us(my sis and I) about why we wanted to broke off the friendship with her last time and did we know how hurt she was.. She keeps saying that we don't understand how she feels.. And that she did think of the reason for saying that sentence and that no matter how angry she got, she would never say those hurtful words.. Seriously, if she know and understand, she wouldn't bugged us.. Some more it's during lessons that she passed those notes.. Don't she know that this month is our critical year and we shouldn't be talking about these things?? Don't know what she's thinking but I don't care much and is too busy to be bothered.. Waste my time only.. As Yansai had said before, why didn't we end it?? It would save us lots of time...

Happy and Happy and Happy!!

2004-10-07T16:28:00.000+08:00

Heehee.. triple happy.. can see how happy I am... HaHaHa.. okay.. the first thing is that I decided to take up 3 month course in either Yishun JC or Innova JC.. Like what my cousin says, since I have the opportunity, I should go try it out and what's more my parents are supportive too.. I can take the chance to go and see how JC life works out and if not that stressing, I might consider going JC if my O levels results are not bad.. Though it may mean that I might have to give out the opportunity of earning my own money and the chance to study Tourism and Hospitality if I decided to go JC but from young I have always thought myself to go to JC but it's just that I am afraid of the stress there.. SOmemore, I can study Literature and History, both my fave subjects...
One more thing to be happy about...
I teamed up with Foxy together to play badminton today.. HaHa.. Such enjoyable time.. That idiotic Ling.. Ppl say want to forget him, after today's game.. Haiz.. So hard, man... All her fault but I must really thank her for giving me this chance.. HaHa.. Injected a bit of excitement in the every day boring life...

Nth to report about

2004-10-05T19:24:00.000+08:00

EHz... Nth interesting in my life today so just a poem for all...

Graduation

The day that we all longed for,
seems just a blink away
We've gone through so much,
to finally reach this day.

The fights and the quarrels
finally came to a halt.
Only then we understand,
the true meaning of friends.

Memories together,
imprinted in our hearts.
The joy we share,
the happiness that we have.
Each of us said of a story,
that never to be forgot.

And, now we've finally reached,
the day for seperate ways,
waves of emotions
flow through our blood.

Though we waved our last goodbye,
holding back our tears,
the pledge of forget- me- not
remain deep in our heart.....

Been Thinking Things Through...

2004-10-04T15:51:00.000+08:00

I have been clearing my mind these few days and I think that maybe it's time I really should put in effort in my work.. Since it's barely 28 days till O levels.. And after 2 months, I will get to enjoy life so why not suffer now then I can taste the sweet berry after that.. What with so much things happening, I have decided to take things not that seriously because some things are not meant to be thought that carefully...

I'm BACK!!

2004-10-03T18:37:00.000+08:00

Okay.. The bubbly and active Patsy Kwa is back again.. With a more positive and a bigger ego.. haha.. I'm kidding about the ego part.. Anyway, I've think things through.. How can a future successful woman be beaten down by small mishaps?? So, I have stand up again.. The ever disturbing Patsy.. And I have become more independent.. Who says I need a guy by my side in order to stand up?? HaHaHaHa,,, Right now or in the future, I will never ever depend on the opposite sex to shower me with happiness because happiness is not to rely on another person to give you, instead you should find it yourself because only when you have gone through the hardships to find it, will you treasure it.. Haiz.. I am blabbering again.. Now.. Once I've said out that I have "broke up" with Chris, then I will be me again.. Not Patsy the Liar anymore.. Instead.. It's Patsy the Great.. So.. Ling.. You should know what to do.. If you don't, well, this is what you should do.. The precious moment letter that I gave you, help me to burn it.. Because I don't want to give Foxy.. Not now, not even after O levels because I have decided to live a life that I can call real happiness and this can only be done by me.. Only I myself can give me the happiness.. NOT him, not anyone.. So, do burn it and don't secretly pass it to him.. If I find out.. You do know how angry I will get.. Thanks a lotzzz... Fang xin.. Even though he will never get the chance to read it, I can still get over the past.. Because I am Patsy

Lotz of Thingz...

2004-10-02T17:00:00.000+08:00

A lot of things happened these few days... The only happy thing that happen to me was that I got my wish regarding my Prelims and that I got 13 points for L1R4.. Other than that, it's all sad sad things... My god sis quarrel with Puit87 and they broke their friendship but Puit87 told my sis that she don't want to make things so worse since it's our last year and month together so they are back together again.. When I know that they broke their friendship, I ran away... Everything became too hard for me to take in... I did not cried because my tears had stopped flowing a long time ago... But now I finally knew what a coward I am.. When I meet with things that aren't smooth, I would run away and hide.. I have been in pain for 2 days already.. I am having a very very terrible headache and it's making me so sick.. Suddenly, I wished that there was someone there for me.. There are times like that when I really wished so.. But that person never did appeared.. And I have long stopped waiting because I am not a patient person to wait for anyone... Now, the only thing in mind is to get over O levels and to get a job so that I can contribute to my family.. I really don't know what's my next step in life.. I can only feel pain in me... I feel so helpless and hopeless... I don't even have the tears to let it all out..

Geezzzz...

2004-09-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hi! Quite happy today because Foxy talk to me and even joke with me.. HaHA... So, I a bit siao now.. Heez... Also another happy news is that I finally got the chatterbox up.. Okay! I admit.. The whole thing was put up by Eugene.. So, Gene, if you get to see this blog, just want to say a word of "thanks!"... You are the best brother cum friend... Heehee... But not that pleased with my results.. Ehz.. because I failed science and a- math.. But then I know that it's because I never study hard for these 2 subjects.. Don't worry, friends... I won't disappoint any... But quite scared and a bit worried now.. Tomorrow getting back my combined humanities(hist and ss)... Worried that I cannot get A1... Tmr will be the day when I will know my L1R4 and L1R5.. If i get C5 for e maths and A1 for combined humanities, I may get 13 and 20 respectively.. But as I said before, happy things don't happen too often on me..
So, blog and those who read my blogs, await the news that I will be bringing tomorrow...

2004-09-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

HaHa... I draw one.. But who would believe???

So- so..

2004-09-28T16:04:00.000+08:00

I got back my English, Chinese and Maths today... I was satisfied with my English and Chinese and I hope that with Mr Kumar's help, I can get distinction for EL! I passed my Maths.. Yeah!! My cousin marked the last 3 pages of e- maths paper 1.. ANd I think she marked wrongly for my last question... If she correct it, I will get 4 more marks and from a C6 to a C5... This will lessen my LiR4... But I knew that I would surely fail my a- maths and science.. Haiz!! If only I can get an A1 for my humanities.. I don't wish to be top, as long as I get A1, Heehee, I would be very very happy.. But I think happy things don't happen too often on me.. So, I would have to be contented.. Haiz!! SHe created problems with me today again.. Twice wor, haiz... WHen can I ever escaped from her palms??

Feeling so frustrated that I want to go bang wall...

2004-09-27T20:02:00.000+08:00

ARhzzzz... She's driving me mad.. Who?? Puit87, of course... I think I will die at a very young age because everytime when I talk to her, I can feel my temper boiling... She just smsed me and say that she's very hurt because last time I said that I wanted to end the friendship.. Why is it that she's always so selfish?? EVerytime also only think about herself... Don't she know that she's very irritating asking the same questions over and over again?? I think next time she sms me this kind of nonsense again, I will delete it straight away...

WeLL....

2004-09-27T17:44:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I got back my english and chemistry back today.. I didn't do well for my chemistry but I some sort expected it... My english was okay lahz but cannot say that I did very well.. So far, today had been a so-so day.. But Foxy today very sad because his geography didn't scored as much as he expected.. I did my best to console him and I hope that he did really cheer up... Not only him, My Jie also very sad but she had to keep up a brave front so that her hus won't be sad too.. So, Jie, if you saw my blog, just want to tell you that don't be sad because your world doesn't just evolve around science.. Kk?? Cheer up!! ;) Tomorrow will be getting back my maths paper 1 ba.. A bit afraid and worried... My chinese too... DOn't think that I will do well... Oh, ya... Almost forget.. Blog, last night, I had a wonderful time outside... I lied to Puit87 that I nv go but haha, I did... It was simply lovely... I had a wonderful talk with my 2 bestest friend in the world(though they keep bullying me) and I also enjoyed the company of the guys.. HeeHee

Worried Now!!

2004-09-26T11:42:00.000+08:00

Haizzzz... Today's sunday.. Tomorrow I have to go back to school and I am dreading it.. Really really dreading it because I know I didn't do well for my prelims... And tomorrow a lot of papers will be given back.. Yesterday I dreamt that I got top in chinese and that I passed my math... They said that dreams always turn out opposite and I believed that.. DOes it mean that I will get the bottom in Chinese and failed my math?? Everything will be revealed tomorrow and it's rather tough for me to sleep tonight.. So afraid.. Afraid that I would lose to Puit87 and many other reasons.. I am so afraid of failing, that I would dash those hopes that my father have on me.. I really love my dad and I hate to disappoint him because he really dotes on me...

2004-09-25T21:36:00.000+08:00

Another pic of my sis cum best friend and I... Such a sweet pic.. Mt sis designed it some more but not as nice as those that I designed... hahahaha

2004-09-25T21:34:00.000+08:00

My dream guy.. hahahahahah

2004-09-25T21:33:00.000+08:00

My sis and I.. nice pic, right?? Of coz lahz... Gt me mahz.. HaHAaHaHa

Quite sad but nt that sad...

2004-09-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. yesterday was a bad bad day for me.. I got back my POA and my a math results.. I only got a B3 for my POA and even failed my a maths exam.. Quite disappointing and a bit sad... I almost cried in class but I had to still smile or else ppl will question me.. Puit87 kept wanting to know my results but I nv did told her because it's very depressing that she beat me.. But she will know it one because when we check our results, everyone will see the grade... But I didn't think too much about it because I knew that I never put in my effort in this exam.. I hardly study... Because during this Preliminary period, I was very troubled and had a lot of problems but I know I can do well in my O levels because I will sruely put in the effort for my O levels and get into SIngapore Poly, my first choice, and leave Puit87... I know I can do it because I am Patsy! But quite worrying about the rest of my papers' results ... I know that I won't do well either but I am not afraid anymore because I've got the perverance to carry on! Jia You! Patsy!!

Hmm....

2004-09-23T19:15:00.000+08:00

Today was a very nice and fun day... I went out with my best friend and sister without Puit87.. Peace, man... We didn't tell her that we went out today so we have to go in secrecy... I enjoyed myseld thoroughly and even spend money on quite a lot of items too.. Today, I discovered something.. You may have a lot of friends but then to find a true true friend is rather hard.. I found 2 in primary sch.. Eugene and Zhi Ning... BUt when I thought that I would find 3, I was wrong.. I could only find 1... Jun was a very nice friend but hard to treat her as a best friend because she hides a lot of things from me and this is not what a friend should.. Puit87 on the other hand told me too much lies and create too much trouble for me... So, it's true when my cousins told me that best friends are hard to find but I think that I would find a lot of friends when I go to Poly(if i can)... HaHa

Drained and Sad

2004-09-22T10:05:00.000+08:00

Today's Physics.. Yesterday, I didn't study much because I was having a very terrible headache.. At first, I thought that by waking up at 2.30 a.m, maybe I can study much more but the headache continues... But luckily, today's paper I can still do some questions so at least I won't fail badly ba.. HaHa.. These few days are a torture to me as I found out more about Puit87.. She was lying to me all along.. I felt betrayed... I felt like a fool and as if I had been used.. I hate people to lie to me because in primary sch, I had been used by a person that I thought was my friend... So, when I found out that she had told me so much lies, I became to turn cold.. I will never believe her again.. Nv... I did those things that a friend should and all I got back was betrayal and lies...

2004-09-20T19:57:00.000+08:00

I am the girl in blue.. With my 3 friends.. But the friendship is broken between some of us...

12.54 a.m

2004-09-19T00:48:00.000+08:00

So late already but I am still online... I can't fall asleep... Think of her things again... Been crying.. It's the umpteen times that I had cried.. Some people might laugh.. hahaha.. "cry over a girl for what? It's not like you are lesbian".. No! I am not!( a lesbian, I mean)...
It's a hard year for me... Starting of the year, have to take care of Bazaar, Leo Club and much more.. And just when I thought that I've finally stepped down from my positions, now is the time to work hard for my future and love and friendship... But nothing has turned out right so far, I had to act and lie every single day... Lies that are simple unimaginable... Lies that I hate myself for spinning out but I had no choice... WHat can I do? I don't have the energy to fight with her... But now then I know, I also don't have the energy to carry on.. I am tired, very tired.. I keep thinkin of sucide... I know this is wrong and I will definately upset a lot of people.. But I really cannot take it anymore, I am not a robot.. I really cannot take it any furthur.. Except for my god- sis, I can't really trust anyone... I have to be wary of everyone and that's making me so sick of it.. WHy can't I just lead a normal life just like any teenager??
I don't wish for much.. I just want her to leave me alone... I have never felt so desperate before.. Never felt so afraid of the world before...
What did I do to deserve such heavy retribution??? I have never felt so fake before.. As if the Patsy that everyone love is no longer in this world.. Instead, it's a replacement that is a coward and a loser in everything....

2004-09-18T22:55:00.000+08:00

This girl looks a bit like me, not because I am as pretty as her.. Because the sadness in her eyes is almost the same as mine... The coldness around her is the same feeling that I have now...

2004-09-18T22:51:00.000+08:00

Lovely babies... heehee...

SOme times I hate this Life...

2004-09-18T22:43:00.000+08:00

I don't hate Puit87 but I dislike her because she gives me a lot of problems.. everytime also like that.. I thought that she had changed but I was wrong.. WHy? Why must she torture me? Because of her, I had to act that I am very happy because I found "some one" to love me... But everything is just an act and I really am sick of lying.. I am feeling very terrible already because the guy that I like doesn't like me at all but yet I had to lie and act that I am very very blissful... I did so much just because I don't want to end any friendship but evertime I am feeling it harder and harder to get along with her... Even talking to her makes me sick?? Besides my god- sis, no one really know the whole truth and how I feel now... This is such a sad sad sad feeling....

Die Die Liao

2004-09-17T16:57:00.000+08:00

I dying soon.. Why? Because I didn't do that well for today's papers.. Chemistry was very difficult and so is Chinese too.. Haiz.. Some more, so much pressure on me when Puit87 say that the E-math paper was definately easy... (-_-")... If I lose to her, I can go bang my wall because it means that my standards had drop terribly.. Oh no, if this happen, how am I ever going to escape from her palm?? DIe Die Liao...

Definately not 1 of my days

2004-09-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

Haiz... Today A - Maths paper is definately a killer paper.. So far, the papers that I have taken so far are not papers that's within my standards... How?? If I can't do simple sums, how am I able to take the real one... Okay, now it's enough of my stupid papers... (think must study harder).. I am going to talk about Puit87... Haiz... She said that I didn't care about her when her face changed after the a math paper... I lied that I didn't saw it, but I did.. It's only that I don't want to ask her.. She don't like a math but yet she's upset with the paper... It's not like it's only her that's upset with it... Everyone also mahz.... SOmetimes I don't really know what she wants with me and yet she can ask me what's that I want... duhz... Seriously, i put in hard work into my studies is so that I can go into a good school and leave her far behind.. Hooz..

I am Back....

2004-09-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

She just sms me saying that she having block nose and fever... Must give her more suggestions or else wait she say I don't care about her again... Poor me.. Must give her a nickname because will talk about her a lot of times.. ok.. I thought of it.. PUIT87... HaHa.. I also don't understand what it means, only think that it as very funny.. HaHa... Some times, I really don't understand why she must think so much... We should learn how to relax mahz or else we will break down sooner or later.. RIght?? HaHa

HoHoHo.. WEll..

2004-09-15T16:34:00.000+08:00

Heez.. I didn't write about her in my blog after all.. By the way, I having my Prelims these few days so I didn't came online.. Anyway, back to her topic, I guess I didn't write about her because I don't want to think about her things.. Every night, like my prayers, I will chant to my self that it's only 2 more months before we will go our own ways so I don't really have to care about her but seriously, I'm afraid because my results may be too poor to get into SP... What if I really get into the same POLY as her?? I don't really know what to do... I don't have a single confidence in me... I am really scared about getting my prelim results back.. I really need the scholarship money to pay for my course next year.. Just by working 7 months or so is not enough... What can I do?? I can only blame for not putting in all my effort.. I really regret for not studying hard enough.. Haiz... BLog, what can I do??

Fruitful

2004-09-07T19:28:00.000+08:00

Hi.. Blog.. Sorry that I nv came and "talk" to you for so long... I was pretty busy these few days... On sunday, I went to the temple to pray.. I learn a lot that day about buddhism. Then on monday which was yesterday, I went to the Singapore Armed Forces Open House... It was a very nice trip with a lot of nice sceneries for example soldiers.. Ok.. I know... My motive there shouldn't be just because of those soldiers.. Acutally, I learn a lot about the ways our soldiers carry out in their mission.. I even had a ride on the military vehicle. I also saw Felicia, Vincent and Qi yiwu frm Mediacorp.. Hoho... There were lots of equipments on display which made me ponder: won't they be afraid that outsiders may come and learn a thing or 2 from our army and take back to their countries and may even one day come and harm us?? Well, we shouldn't be so selfish after all.. They learn from us and we can also learn from them.. right? WEll,, the conclusion that I get after the trip was that I am lucky that I am not a man because the excersies may proved to be way too much for me as I am pretty weak.. Then, today I went and watch A Cinderella Story which was pretty nice... I just love happy endings.. I am not going to write much about the movie as it may spoiled the fun of those who were planning to go and catch it...

Heez

2004-09-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

HaHa... I nv write my blog again.. Well, I think I will Write my blog once 2 days... Anyway, Yesterday, something which caused a great impact on my life happened. My hao jie mei went to tell a secret that very few know to the guy that I like hoping that he won't be mistaken about me and of course that guy had to say his feelings on that matter. He said that he will approach me when the time is right. I am a strong gal so I won't really reveal how I feel, maybe not even to my hao jie mei baz... This is really scary though.. (sigh).. Guess I won't be able to sleep well these few days... I really hope that this time, I won't fail again or I will never stand up again(haha, Juz kidding).. I will definately stand up because I am a person that cherish my mian zi very much.. hohoho

OoPs... HaHa

2004-09-02T19:26:00.000+08:00

Well... oops, i did it again.. Sorry blog, I broke my promise... I didn't wrote in yesterday. Well, I didn't really mean it but I was so tired after buying my form teacher, Miss Rozi's suprise party's things that I went straight to bed and laze when I came home.. I didn't even come online... Well, enough of the explaination.. I had a so-called wonderful day today at sch.. During PE lesson, I played my favourite sport, BADMINTON... hahaha.. It was such a fun time.. Then, the lessons followed was not as boring as expected... Then during the last period which was maths, we had a fun time as Miss Rozi was so touched by our act.. I played a very dangerous part in this act as my thumb got burnt while I was lighting the candles... Overall, it was a fruitful day today... Yipee...